Dreamwork

Dreamwork is a powerful way to bring thoughts from the subconscious to the conscious, receive spiritual messages, and more all while doing what I love best - sleeping.

Last week, I shared a post called Remembering Healing. In this post, I want to share a dream I had that led to last week’s post.

I remember experiencing what felt like combat training. I had a gun that was tied to my right arm. Myself, along with two people went into a place. There were stairs everywhere. Lots of them. We begin climbing the stairs. One person was in front of me, and another person behind me. What felt like Me was in the middle. As we climbed higher, the stairs weren’t always connected. So we had to climb some of the stairs like a ladder. The space got smaller and tighter, so we even had to crawl up the stairs. The person in front of me kept climbing. The person behind me left and went back. The distance grew between me and the person in front of me. Eventually, I decided to go back.

As I was writing about this in my dream journal, I realized that all three of them were me - past, present, and future Me. Present me is always deciding what to do in each moment. Move towards the future or the past? Now, this is subconscious of course. Consciously, my intention is to move towards the future and not repeat the past.

It’s what they represent. The future is the unknown. Uncertain. Therefore, to my present Self my future Self is unrecognizable. They behave, think and commune differently. My future is foreign land. On the other hand, my past Self is recognizable through a collection of memories. Memories stored in my body through habits, feelings, and thinking processes. To my present Self, I am always living with a fork in the road.

The question that is always present - continue past patterns or create new ones? This includes but is not limited to ancestral patterns. It can be patterns from ages ago or as simple as days ago. For example, my past Self likes to rise between 8am-10am. My future Self wants to rise at 5am. To my present Self, rising at 5am is foreign.

In order to rise at 5am, I need to create a new habit. Creating new habits involves shifting my internal chemistry to match that new habit that will then create a new reality (external environment). It’s not always in that order because none of this is linear. The point I’m making is that something as simple as considering a new habit shifts my internal chemistry. If I choose to continue waking up between 8am-10am, my internal chemistry is shifting from present Self to past Self. If I wake up at 5am, my internal chemistry is shifting from present Self to future Self.

This constant shifting back and forth may manifest in what feels like anxiety. Water constantly flowing back and forth. Not always in the same rhythm, so you can’t really anticipate its motion nor ground into the motion. You’re simply flowing to and fro. In the same way that we can develop sea sickness from surfing ocean waves, anxiety is the result of sea sickness from the constant shifting of our internal waters.

I always move through present moment as my present Self. Since life at its core doesn’t behave linearly, sometimes at a given moment the past, present and future Self are all present. Correction, they are all present in every present moment. We are literally shifting between different dimensions and timelines in a single moment………………does anxiety feel quite normal to you now?

Do I have to live with this constant angst in my stomach that sometimes disrupts my normal functioning in this reality? As soon as I wrote this question, I kept hearing..

ACCEPT

ACCEPT

ACCEPT

ACCEPT

ACCEPT

THE MORE YOU PRACTICE ACCEPTANCE, THE MORE ANXIETY SUBSIDES. The reason anxiety is expressing in this way is because you are having a hard time accepting impermanence. You’re grasping towards your past Self or your future Self instead of relaxing into your present Self, which is the meeting place for all three of You.

How do I connect with my past Self, present Self, and future Self all in the present moment?……………………….stay tuned for Part 3 next week.